embarrassed.

this blog embarrasses me. the last time i wrote was in august. and while my life doesn't change that frequently, it does change occasionally and i probably should keep my loyal readers on my toes. :) there are two things i have come to realize recently. one. life sometimes just sucks (what? it does.) two. but we have the MOST amazing father in Heaven that guides us, comforts us, brings us peace, and delivers us from harm. and i am so unbearably greatful.

i joined a group at my church that is such an amazing testament to God's glory. I walk in the room and feel so much peace and love and i am so thankful for that. i joined this at just the right time in my life. because, as mentioned before, life just sometimes really sucks. but them i remember how much God is in control of my life.

in a book that we are reading, one of the most powerful sentences to me said, "trust me my child," says God, "i have your ultimate GOOD in mind." it says good...not bad, ugly, cruddy, etc. and i think this statement every single day. HE has his ultimate good in mind for ME. little ol me. WHAT?! it makes me think of how a parent loves a child. and its UNCONDITIONAL. and just like that my Heavenly Father loves me in the same way. how humbling and amazing is that?!

so...on nights like tonight where i had to escape my house for even a few minutes and take a walk (i walked to the calves), i remember, you know what, it's NOT for me to worry about, but for my most precious Heavenly Father. HE will take care of me.

i am really going to try to post more often. my life has been going 100 mph and i am BARELY hanging on, but REMEMBER....GOD IS IN CONTROL. and THAT my friends, is OK.

Love You All!
molly